山姆的寰宇小舖

第1章：

我確定有些人會因為這份紀錄感到倍受威脅。少數人也許會感到解脫。大部分的人會單純認為這不應該存在。

I'm certain some will feel threatened by this record. Some few may feel liberated. Most will simply feel that it should not exist.

第2章：

但我還是得寫下來。

I needed to write it anyway.

第4章：

我知道許多閱讀這篇文字的女人將只會視之為進一步的證據，證明我正如眾人所說，只是個目中無神的異教徒。

I know that many women who read this will see it only as further proof that I am the godless heretic everyone claims.

第5章：

我可以指出自己在何時篤定必須寫下這份文件。我在界域間懸掛，望進了幽界—屬於靈的—以及未知的界域。

I can point to the moment when I decided for certain this record had to be written. I hung between realms, seeing into Shadesmar—the realm of the spren—and beyond.

第6章：

我當時心想自己鐵定會死。當然，有些比我看得更遠的人也認為我已經殞命。

I thought that I was surely dead. Certainly, some who saw further than I did thought I had fallen.

第7章：

但我沒死。

我經歷了更糟的事情。

I did not die.

I experienced something worse.

第8章：

然而不只是那個時刻，我可以誠懇地說，這本書自從我的年少時期就一直在醞釀。

That moment notwithstanding, I can honestly say this book has been brewing in me since my youth.

第9章：

我所有經驗的加總都導致了此刻。這個決定。

The sum of my experiences has pointed at this moment. This decision.

第10章：

也許我的異端可以追溯到這些念頭開始的童年時光。

Perhaps my heresy stretches back to those days in my childhood, where these ideas began.

第12章：

我要求的不是你的原諒，甚至不求你的理解。

I ask not that you forgive me. Nor that you even understand.

第13章：

我只要求你閱讀或傾聽這些字句。

I ask only that you read or listen to these words.

第14章：

在這份紀錄中，我會毫無隱瞞。我會試圖不迴避困難的主題，或者為自己抹上不實的英雄光彩。

In this record, I hold nothing back. I will try not to shy away from difficult topics, or paint myself in a dishonestly heroic light.

第15章：

我只會表達直白的，甚至可謂殘酷的，事實。你們必須知道我做了甚麼，還有這些行動讓我付出的代價。

I will express only direct, even brutal, truth. You must know what I have done, and what those actions cost me.

第16章：

因為唯有如此才能取得教訓。

For in this comes the lesson.

第17章：

這堂課並非我所能教導的。經驗自身就是個優秀的導師，而你必須親自奉她為師。

It is not a lesson I claim to be able to teach. Experience herself is the great teacher, and you must seek her directly.

第18章：

你不能只聽過香料的描述，卻從未親自品嘗。

You cannot have a spice described to you, but must taste it for yourself.

第20章：

然而，如此危險的香料，你可以被警告要謹慎嘗試。但願你學到這一課的過程不會和我一樣痛苦。

However, with a dangerous spice, you can be warned to taste lightly. I would that your lesson may not be as painful as my own.

第21章：

我不是說書人，能用詼諧的軼事娛樂你。

I am no storyteller, to entertain you with whimsical yarns.

第22章：

我不是哲學家，能用犀利的問題啟發你。

I am no philosopher, to intrigue you with piercing questions.

第23章：

我不是詩人，能用機智的典故取悅你。

I am no poet, to delight you with clever allusions.

第24章：

毫無疑問的，你們都比我更聰明。我只能連結所有故事與我的所作所為，並讓你導出結論。

I have no doubt that you are smarter than I am. I can only relate what happened, what I have done, and then let you draw conclusions.

第25章：

我會在你眼前坦承自己所有的殺戮。最令我痛苦的，我殺害了某個曾摯愛我的人。

I will confess my murders before you. Most painfully, I have killed someone who loved me dearly.

第27章：

我會坦承自己的異端。無論執徒們怎麼要求，我不會在自己的一字一句前退讓。

I will confess my heresy. I do not back down from the things I have said, regardless of what the ardents demand.

第28章：

最後，我會坦承自己的人性。我被稱為怪物，也不否認這些指責。我即是我擔憂每個人都有可能成為的怪物。

Finally, I will confess my humanity. I have been named a monster, and do not deny those claims. I am the monster that I fear we all can become.

第29章：

所以坐下來吧。閱讀或聆聽，一個曾經穿越於界域間的人。

So sit back. Read, or listen, to someone who has passed between realms.

第30章：

聆聽一個愚人的肺腑之言。

Listen to the words of a fool.

第31章：

如果它們無法讓你比較不愚昧，至少讓它們給予你希望。

If they cannot make you less foolish, at least let them give you hope.

第32章：

因為在所有人之中，我，已經脫胎換骨。

For I, of all people, have changed.